Now I am like a dog with a bone because after so many frustrating years speaking about and getting rejected and villified for my right brain theory, it seems like the idea of the shift of energy from the rational, logical, sequential left brain to the intuitive right side is gaining momentum. I feel like Osho who also intuitied something similar and didn't have his ideas taken up. I've come across a paragraph in a book written by Osho called 'Intuition' and this is what he has to say about the right side of the brain.
'Your brain is divided into two hemispheres, the right hemisphere and the left hemisphere. The right hemisphere is joined with the left hand and the left hemisphere is joined with the right hand - crosswise. The right hemisphere is intuitive, illogical, irrational, poetic, platonic, imaginative, romantic, mythical. The left hemisphere is logical, rational, mathematical, Aristoltelian, scientific and calculative. These two hemispheres are always in conflict. The left hand is concerned with the right hemisphere - intuition, poetry, myth - and the left hand is very much condemned. The society is of those who are right-handed - right handed means the left hemisphere'. He speaks about how in the past children who had a natural tendancy to write with their left hand were forced to write with their right hand and I remember this very well. This leads me to believe that the powers of the right side of the brain has been known about and kept secret for many many years. Osho continues 'Children who are born left-handed are basically irrational, intuitive, non-mathematical, they are dangerous to society so it forces them to become right-handed. It is not just a question of hands, it is a question of inner politics: the left handed child functions through the right hemisphere which society cannot allow, it is dangerous, so he/she has to be stopped before things go too far' Osho Intuition page 123.
Like everything I write and reference I am not claiming that this is the absolute bona fide truth but it mirrors a feeling I have had since a young girl when I knew that I was different but never understood why. My mother paid for me to have grinds in mathematics but the teacher gave up and left because there was no left brain ability there. Years ago I submitted the outline of a book to a publisher called 'right brain woman living in a left brained world' which got a deafening silent response. But I really do feel that the day of acknowledgement for the power of the right brain is fast approaching helped along by 3D films such as Avatar. When I was watching this I was struck by how the consciousness is being exposed to greater depth perception. Normally our consciousness is two dimensional, films like 3D Avatar give the consciousness the experience of 3D which is where evolution is shifting our consciousness to.
So with all of these developments I should be so excited and yet I'm not. I am quietly calm and confident that sooner rather than later spiritual awakening will be undeniably linked to right brain development....
Wednesday 29 September 2010
Tuesday 28 September 2010
Such a powerful energy....rests at the base of the spine
Today is my Kundalini yoga class. Kundalini is the eastern name given to the energy that lies dormant at the base of the spine. It is said to be coiled like a snake three and a half-times around the spinal cord. Even though I had studied Mahayana Buddhism for almost 10 years the idea of energy at the base of the spine was something I had never heard of. So when this energy rose naturally and spontaneously when I was on a 10 day silent meditation retreat in 1999 I had no idea what was happening. Afterwards I was and continue to be so in awe of this magnificent secret that the body holds and that's for all of us. This for me....is the energy of spiritual awakening if not enlightenment. I know what I was and what my spiritual understandings were before this energy rose and I know what I am now and what I underwent was a spiritual transformation.
And yet I am also a spiritual scientist who wants to investigate objectively what this energy is. At a certain level everyone has experienced it in its crudest form which is the energy of orgasm but experienced in a non-sexual setting it transmutes from the sexual to something much higher and powerful. The challenge becomes one of how to have this energy transmute. I believe that as the consciousness shifts from the left to the right side of the brain that this energy is going to transmute in a more intense way. Therefore, it is important to prepare the body to receive this by doing a certain amount of spiritual practice to strengthen the body. My experience of this energy is that it is not so much an energy as a fire that burns away a thin web of energy that separates the emotional from the mental resulting in a harmonious personality.
When this energy erupts and the body and brain is not ready to receive it what happens is what is called a 'spiritual emergency' and I assert that psychiatric hospitals have many people who have had this but nobody has known what it is. I assert that the only difference between the mystic and the psychotic person is who they spoke to. That is why when one first experiences this energy it is very important to know when to speak up and when to shut up. Because this energy activates areas in the brain that are normally dormant very strange thoughts, ideas can come and it was my training as a Buddhist to use the concept of the Witness which enabled me to integrate the experience into my everyday life. The experience shatters consciousness which is why adopting a witness mentality which is watching everything that is happening as a dispassionate observer is so important and then gradually the experience will be integrated. I remember in the early days of this experience feeling very manic having rapid and intense thoughts and having all kinds of conspiracy ideas and then a few days or a week later feeling very low. In medical terms I would have been diagnosed with possible manic depression. But throughout all of this I watched everything that was happening to me as an observer and gradually it all calmed down.
Hazel Courtney who used to be Health editor for a well-known newspaper experienced a spontaneous awakening which she has written about in her book 'Divine Intervention'. This is the most moving account of a spontaneous spiritual emergency that I have read and it's made more authentic because of how normal she apparently was before the experience. The energy will never rise though without some practice being engaged in beforehand which is why not doing any form of this yoga alone is so important. It is why I am now going to train to be a teacher so I can work with this energy safely and naturally. One of the first books I read after my experience was called 'living with kundalini' by Gopi Krishna and I resolved after that not to have anything to do with this energy. However I was drawn to yoga and had tried every kind but none of it resonated. Then I joined a gym and I couldn't believe it when one of the classes was a kundalini yoga class. With great reservation I went to my first class which I think I wrote about on either this blog or the other one I had and from that moment felt like I had come home. Since then a weekly kundalini yoga class is part of my lifestyle and now instead of being scared of this powerful energy I am now looking forward to working co-operatively with it.
But this has been a journey and I have been lucky in that my consciousness didn't have to shift from left to right for me to have this experience. It is my feeling and is something to be celebrated and looked forward to rather than feared that many more examples of people having this shift are going to be reported. There is going to come a time when the logic and rationalism of the left brain is not going to work...this will mark the most fundamental shift of all.....
And yet I am also a spiritual scientist who wants to investigate objectively what this energy is. At a certain level everyone has experienced it in its crudest form which is the energy of orgasm but experienced in a non-sexual setting it transmutes from the sexual to something much higher and powerful. The challenge becomes one of how to have this energy transmute. I believe that as the consciousness shifts from the left to the right side of the brain that this energy is going to transmute in a more intense way. Therefore, it is important to prepare the body to receive this by doing a certain amount of spiritual practice to strengthen the body. My experience of this energy is that it is not so much an energy as a fire that burns away a thin web of energy that separates the emotional from the mental resulting in a harmonious personality.
When this energy erupts and the body and brain is not ready to receive it what happens is what is called a 'spiritual emergency' and I assert that psychiatric hospitals have many people who have had this but nobody has known what it is. I assert that the only difference between the mystic and the psychotic person is who they spoke to. That is why when one first experiences this energy it is very important to know when to speak up and when to shut up. Because this energy activates areas in the brain that are normally dormant very strange thoughts, ideas can come and it was my training as a Buddhist to use the concept of the Witness which enabled me to integrate the experience into my everyday life. The experience shatters consciousness which is why adopting a witness mentality which is watching everything that is happening as a dispassionate observer is so important and then gradually the experience will be integrated. I remember in the early days of this experience feeling very manic having rapid and intense thoughts and having all kinds of conspiracy ideas and then a few days or a week later feeling very low. In medical terms I would have been diagnosed with possible manic depression. But throughout all of this I watched everything that was happening to me as an observer and gradually it all calmed down.
Hazel Courtney who used to be Health editor for a well-known newspaper experienced a spontaneous awakening which she has written about in her book 'Divine Intervention'. This is the most moving account of a spontaneous spiritual emergency that I have read and it's made more authentic because of how normal she apparently was before the experience. The energy will never rise though without some practice being engaged in beforehand which is why not doing any form of this yoga alone is so important. It is why I am now going to train to be a teacher so I can work with this energy safely and naturally. One of the first books I read after my experience was called 'living with kundalini' by Gopi Krishna and I resolved after that not to have anything to do with this energy. However I was drawn to yoga and had tried every kind but none of it resonated. Then I joined a gym and I couldn't believe it when one of the classes was a kundalini yoga class. With great reservation I went to my first class which I think I wrote about on either this blog or the other one I had and from that moment felt like I had come home. Since then a weekly kundalini yoga class is part of my lifestyle and now instead of being scared of this powerful energy I am now looking forward to working co-operatively with it.
But this has been a journey and I have been lucky in that my consciousness didn't have to shift from left to right for me to have this experience. It is my feeling and is something to be celebrated and looked forward to rather than feared that many more examples of people having this shift are going to be reported. There is going to come a time when the logic and rationalism of the left brain is not going to work...this will mark the most fundamental shift of all.....
Monday 27 September 2010
My writing....is not polished enough
The title of this post was the response I eventually received to the two articles I submitted to the 'No 1 Premier Enlightenment Site'. I have my suspicion that the refusal to publish the articles had more to do with the reference I made to the right side of the brain in spiritual awakening then that my writing needed to be 'polished'. As a result I am now going to focus on putting all of my unpolished writing on this blog. However I really must stress that nothing of what I write I assert to be the Truth. In fact there is no truth there are only points of view and in that way one point of view is just as valid as another.
Why I am breaking away from the spiritual supermarket is because I believe that spiritual development is solely to do with the right side of the brain. What is my basis for this? It is how much I have struggled all my life with what I call left brain abillities like logic, mathematics, problem solving, map reading and on the other hand how intuitive sensitive, perceptive I have always been. The former are left brain qualities and the latter are right brain qualities. It was only when I was studying psychology and learned about the connection between the eye and the brain that I put together the possibility and I must stress that this has never been verified by science that because I have had no sight in my right eye from birth that the left side of the brain has not been stimulated causing the right to take over and to give me more spiritual insights and intuitions than is possible where both sides of the brain function equally.
I subsequently found out that Gordon Brown has a glass eye in his left eye which was caused by a rugby accident when he was 11. Diminished sight to the right side of the brain could have been compensated for by more activity in the left side of the brain so is it any surprise that he was Chancellor of the Exchequer before beooming Prime Minister and the reason why he lacked the charisma associated with the right side of the brain.
In 1988 on a meditation retreat in Southern England I had a profound experience of energy rising from the base of my spine, going to my head and descending. My assertion is that this is what happens when the right side of the brain is at a certain level of development and has absolutely nothing to do with spiritual rituals and practices. Many years ago in response to many exasperated people who told me that if I didn't stop looking for a rational explanation to account for the ease with which I could understand spiritual literature and the experiences I have had that I would lose the joy, bliss, oneness with life which is a constant presence for me. I abandoned all of my brain theory and threw myself into living the life of a mystic only to have it all come crashing down.
When I recovered I once again took up the mantle for recognition of the right side of the brain in spiritual development and I will not abandon it again. I remember always being struck by the line in the bible 'he is seated at the right hand of the father', why is it the right hand and not the left if this wasn't a veiled reference to the brain. Why in the past were children who were natural left hand writers made to write with their right hand. I assert it is because the left hand and right brain are connected and society values the qualities of the left side of the brain more highly. And up to now everything has conspired to keep consciousness located in the left side of the brain but this is now shifting at a phenomenal rate spurred on by all the discoveries in the field of quantum mechanics. I made this point about quantum mechanics acclerating the shift of consciousness from the left to the right side of the brain and I was attacked verbally for it.
So...you can imagine my surprise this evening when I received an article from a man who I had spoken to about the shift of consciousness from the left to the right in the run-up to the major and most fundamental shift in 2012 when in the middle of his article he wrote 'These are all things in which we are all going to experience this will occur simply because as the energetic shift takes place so do our mental hemisphere’s in other words from left to right'. This from a man who when I wrote to him something similar months ago completely rejected it. This leads me to ask why has he now suddenly introduced the idea in his article. Perhaps the evolutionary shift which is happening is way stronger than the conspiracy of the past which kept the power of the right side of the brain a closely guarded secret. Is the right brain the holy grail. What I want readers to take away from this post is never ever to give up on something you believe in. Keep being a stand for it even if everybody says you are wrong. Don't ever sell out on something you feel is intuitively right....
Why I am breaking away from the spiritual supermarket is because I believe that spiritual development is solely to do with the right side of the brain. What is my basis for this? It is how much I have struggled all my life with what I call left brain abillities like logic, mathematics, problem solving, map reading and on the other hand how intuitive sensitive, perceptive I have always been. The former are left brain qualities and the latter are right brain qualities. It was only when I was studying psychology and learned about the connection between the eye and the brain that I put together the possibility and I must stress that this has never been verified by science that because I have had no sight in my right eye from birth that the left side of the brain has not been stimulated causing the right to take over and to give me more spiritual insights and intuitions than is possible where both sides of the brain function equally.
I subsequently found out that Gordon Brown has a glass eye in his left eye which was caused by a rugby accident when he was 11. Diminished sight to the right side of the brain could have been compensated for by more activity in the left side of the brain so is it any surprise that he was Chancellor of the Exchequer before beooming Prime Minister and the reason why he lacked the charisma associated with the right side of the brain.
In 1988 on a meditation retreat in Southern England I had a profound experience of energy rising from the base of my spine, going to my head and descending. My assertion is that this is what happens when the right side of the brain is at a certain level of development and has absolutely nothing to do with spiritual rituals and practices. Many years ago in response to many exasperated people who told me that if I didn't stop looking for a rational explanation to account for the ease with which I could understand spiritual literature and the experiences I have had that I would lose the joy, bliss, oneness with life which is a constant presence for me. I abandoned all of my brain theory and threw myself into living the life of a mystic only to have it all come crashing down.
When I recovered I once again took up the mantle for recognition of the right side of the brain in spiritual development and I will not abandon it again. I remember always being struck by the line in the bible 'he is seated at the right hand of the father', why is it the right hand and not the left if this wasn't a veiled reference to the brain. Why in the past were children who were natural left hand writers made to write with their right hand. I assert it is because the left hand and right brain are connected and society values the qualities of the left side of the brain more highly. And up to now everything has conspired to keep consciousness located in the left side of the brain but this is now shifting at a phenomenal rate spurred on by all the discoveries in the field of quantum mechanics. I made this point about quantum mechanics acclerating the shift of consciousness from the left to the right side of the brain and I was attacked verbally for it.
So...you can imagine my surprise this evening when I received an article from a man who I had spoken to about the shift of consciousness from the left to the right in the run-up to the major and most fundamental shift in 2012 when in the middle of his article he wrote 'These are all things in which we are all going to experience this will occur simply because as the energetic shift takes place so do our mental hemisphere’s in other words from left to right'. This from a man who when I wrote to him something similar months ago completely rejected it. This leads me to ask why has he now suddenly introduced the idea in his article. Perhaps the evolutionary shift which is happening is way stronger than the conspiracy of the past which kept the power of the right side of the brain a closely guarded secret. Is the right brain the holy grail. What I want readers to take away from this post is never ever to give up on something you believe in. Keep being a stand for it even if everybody says you are wrong. Don't ever sell out on something you feel is intuitively right....
Saturday 25 September 2010
I had forgotten....how much enjoyment I get from writing...
Recently I came upon the writings of Osho and it is a measure of how much my spiritual journey has shifted in that I now read his work. In the past I had dismissed him when I heard about this fleet of Rolls Royces and his Rolex watches but now I see that what he was doing was making a statement about materialism and consumerism Oshos total philosophy was that anything that is repressed in consciousness is a barrier to enlightenment. This is why the free attitude he had to sex has been so heavily criticized. But one only has to look at the effect of the repression of the sexual energy in the Catholic religion and see how destructive that was in terms of the men of God who have been convicted of paedophilia. The sexual impulse is one of the strongest because it is driven by instinct. Instinct is animal and has as its motivation the continuation of the species. To deny the expression of the impulse and to twist its nature so that it becomes something to be ashamed or guilty of is unforgiveable but this is what the Catholic religion has done down through the ages.
Desires and attachments are not disappeared by fasting, austerity, denial. In fact they grow stronger when dealt with like this. These can only disappear when they have been fully experienced. Buddha was only able to give everything up when he had experienced everything. This is why we have been born as humans to enjoy to the full everything that life has to offer and then to 'see' the emptiness of it and realize something higher. This is what is meant by surrender. It is having it all and realizing that 'all' is empty. All of us at one point will have this moment but unfortunately what so many choose to do is to 'stuff' that moment rather than to 'see' clearly the moment and the opportunity that it brings.
So for one day, enjoy and participate fully in all of life, the next day there may come a moment when the realization dawns that things material can never bring the holy grail of enlightenment and then surrender is not forced but a willing and joyful letting go.....
Desires and attachments are not disappeared by fasting, austerity, denial. In fact they grow stronger when dealt with like this. These can only disappear when they have been fully experienced. Buddha was only able to give everything up when he had experienced everything. This is why we have been born as humans to enjoy to the full everything that life has to offer and then to 'see' the emptiness of it and realize something higher. This is what is meant by surrender. It is having it all and realizing that 'all' is empty. All of us at one point will have this moment but unfortunately what so many choose to do is to 'stuff' that moment rather than to 'see' clearly the moment and the opportunity that it brings.
So for one day, enjoy and participate fully in all of life, the next day there may come a moment when the realization dawns that things material can never bring the holy grail of enlightenment and then surrender is not forced but a willing and joyful letting go.....
Friday 24 September 2010
I received a comment.....which has prompted me to resume this blog...
Yesterday someone thanked me for a post I had written in August 2007 and it has prompted me to return to my old style of writing on my old blog. Yes, I know that it's not as sophisticated as WordPress, but it is where I started out writing and the site I am most comfortable with. My spiritual journey continues. Although I am convinced that more than being spiritually chosen I am right brain dominant. And I assert, that what is happening out there in the world is that the consciousness which up to now has been tied up in name and form of the left side of the brain is now shifting to the right. I don't make this statement as the truth only an idea to be considered and one that fits with my own experience. At the end of the day that is only always what I will write from and that is my own experience.
Another trigger that has sent me back to writing my own way and publishing what I want to write is that I joined a 'premier enlightenment site' to write articles and because the articles were to do with the involvement of the right side of the brain in spiritual awakening they weren't published. We live in a democracy, my words as I am always keen to point out are not the truth just ideas and I personally think that if spiritual awakening could be linked to right brain development then more people would see the state of enlightenment as much more achievable than they do today. For most people living from an enlightened state is the preserve of saints and mystics and I say 'no', it's not. It's simply a function of the consciousness shifting from the left brain to the right which is an evolutionary shift. Yes, there are certain spiritual practices that can be performed but if the consciousness is not ready to shift then these practices will be absolutely useless.
However, when the consciousness is ready to shift then nothing on earth is going to prevent an experience of spiritual awakening and then depending on the depth and scale of the shift the experience of enlightenment. So let's get straight about the spiritual path and how it develops. Yes, my writing is threatening but only for those who have such an inflated spiritual ego that refuses to accept or acknowledge the involvement of the right side of the brain. This is the highest of spiritual fraud and something I will not take part in.
I have had powerful spiritual experiences but I also only have sight in one eye and the eye and the brain are connected. Everyday I ask myself the question 'if I had two properly functioning eyes would I have had the profound experiences I have had and the automatic intuitive understandings and insights' and I feel absolutely sure that the answer is 'no'. I haven't spent years meditating or getting a spiritual name and going off to spend time in ashrams. I am so ordinary in that way that to attain the state that I have without having to have put in years of practice, says to me that something else is at work. However, the spiritual powers that be fail to acknowledge this or even to give me a platform for my views, so I am once again falling back on my trusty blog that has been with me for most of my spiritual journey.
If I still have readers on this blog, then thanks very much for staying with me and my commitment is to once again write regularly on this blog.
Another trigger that has sent me back to writing my own way and publishing what I want to write is that I joined a 'premier enlightenment site' to write articles and because the articles were to do with the involvement of the right side of the brain in spiritual awakening they weren't published. We live in a democracy, my words as I am always keen to point out are not the truth just ideas and I personally think that if spiritual awakening could be linked to right brain development then more people would see the state of enlightenment as much more achievable than they do today. For most people living from an enlightened state is the preserve of saints and mystics and I say 'no', it's not. It's simply a function of the consciousness shifting from the left brain to the right which is an evolutionary shift. Yes, there are certain spiritual practices that can be performed but if the consciousness is not ready to shift then these practices will be absolutely useless.
However, when the consciousness is ready to shift then nothing on earth is going to prevent an experience of spiritual awakening and then depending on the depth and scale of the shift the experience of enlightenment. So let's get straight about the spiritual path and how it develops. Yes, my writing is threatening but only for those who have such an inflated spiritual ego that refuses to accept or acknowledge the involvement of the right side of the brain. This is the highest of spiritual fraud and something I will not take part in.
I have had powerful spiritual experiences but I also only have sight in one eye and the eye and the brain are connected. Everyday I ask myself the question 'if I had two properly functioning eyes would I have had the profound experiences I have had and the automatic intuitive understandings and insights' and I feel absolutely sure that the answer is 'no'. I haven't spent years meditating or getting a spiritual name and going off to spend time in ashrams. I am so ordinary in that way that to attain the state that I have without having to have put in years of practice, says to me that something else is at work. However, the spiritual powers that be fail to acknowledge this or even to give me a platform for my views, so I am once again falling back on my trusty blog that has been with me for most of my spiritual journey.
If I still have readers on this blog, then thanks very much for staying with me and my commitment is to once again write regularly on this blog.
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